"Today is kind of a blur to me."--Cindy Sheehan
Penny strides into the front lawn of the Crawford
Peace House talking about that time up in Racine five
weeks before the alleged re-election when she stood
along the street with firemen and everybody, and
flipped the President the bird. "Thank you," is what
Penny recalls the President saying to her. "God, what
a weak man!"
Like Cindy Sheehan, Penny is motivated by the death of
her son, but Penny’s son was not killed in an overseas
war. He lost his life to the politics of health care
funding in Texas. "I'm only the Governor," is how
Penny recalls Bush's response when she asked him to
help restore a sudden cut in funding to the cancer
research trial in Arlington, Texas that was doing good
things for her son. "My son died because that
treatment was delayed," says Penny. And that's one
reason why she flipped the President the bird.
As for why she's standing here in Texas, 1163 miles
from home, she says of herself and spouse Mike, who
should be shuttled here any minute from the stadium
parking lot: "We have no idea what we're doing. We've
never done anything like this before. But it's time
we became teenagers!"
"There's a lot we have on our side," says Penny
thinking about the movement that she has come to join.
"There are a lot of angels here. Every one of those
soldiers killed is an angel on our side. I'm working
for the Apocalypse. Either take them or take me, but
don't leave us together anymore!" she grins.
"We had some friends up in Sturgis," says Penny,
speaking about the
href="http://www.sturgis-rally.com/">mega
motorcycle convergence that happens up in South Dakota
every August. "I told everyone there to come on
down." At Sturgis, Penny had some work on display.
"I went from defense work to making motorcycle seats,"
she says.
Then Penny begins to give another reason why she
flipped the President the bird. As a long-time
employee of a famed defense contractor, Penny watched
them rebuild equipment using old parts from the
warehouse, then purchase new parts for inventory,
charging the government the cost of placing the new
part on the shelf, while returning the rebuilt
equipment. One day she was asked to "fill in" some
prices for parts that had been taken from old stock,
but which had cost the company nothing in recent
years. She blew the whistle on that operation and was
laid off in 2002.
Penny's spouse Mike could tell another bird-flipping
tale, too, she assures me, but he's apparently been
taken straight to Camp Casey in the car of Austin
attorney Jim Harrington, so Penny hands me her card
and catches the next shuttle out. A tube of caulk
hits the sidewalk near my feet and I look up to see a
volunteer on the roof trying to fix a leak.
*****
Julie Decker from San Diego County, California will be
well known to television audiences in her home town.
She and Tiffany Strauss traveled out here by airplane
Tuesday, with San Diego reporters following every
move. Julie says she heard Cindy on the radio "and 20
hours later" she was on the way.
Bob Carter from Houston shows up with a bag full of
supplies and comes into the kitchen asking if he can
write a check. Sure says Linda, the mainstay
volunteer of the day, as she scurries to keep up with
a pile of chores. Linda is a retired special
education teacher who moved to Fort Worth from
Stockton, California in 1975. In the mid-eighties she
was activated by the Gary Hart campaign for President
and interreligious activism in behalf of Central
America. Peace Action is the
href="http://www.peace-action.org/">group she most
closely identifies with today.
Like Linda, Bob is a retired school teacher. He
taught music and band. "I'm here because this is
going to be big," he assures me. "This might be the
beginning of the end of the Iraq war. If we don't
stop this guy now he might bomb Iran and Syria. I
don't trust the man." Because Bob was attending the
University of Texas, he was given a draft deferment
until graduation day 1954. "In war mankind is at his
worst!" says Bob standing now in the front room of the
Peace House. It's incredible how we reduce young men
and women to monsters."
A UPS delivery is coming through the front door. Hadi
Jawad signs for the small stack of boxes and envelopes
as the driver surveys the scene.
"What we have to do is to change the general frame of
mind," continues Bob, after apologizing for preaching.
"From our training, our education, and our media we
don't hear the other side. So 70 percent of the
people in the USA agreed that we should start a
unilateral war against a country that posed no threat?
What the hell is going on! How can you change that
frame of mind?"
Bob and his spouse park their tiny dog Biscuit in a
side room at the Peace House and catch a shuttle to
the camp. When Biscuit starts whining, I look at
Linda and she says, "they said we could walk him." So
I take Biscuit to the garden for a walk around the
labyrinth. Johnny Wolf laid out the design, which
looks very much like the famous
href="http://www.lessons4living.com/chartres_labyrinth.htm">pattern
on the floor of the cathedral at Chartres. It makes
for an interesting foot trip today. First you think
you are heading steadily to the center, then you find
yourself moving out to the rim. But why doesn't the
path just take me to the center, you ask yourself, and
just as you're about to curse the labyrinth, you're
standing right in the middle. Very nice. A little
lesson in patience for Biscuit and me.
*****
Directing traffic this morning along Cedar Rock
Parkway is Tim, a Stonewall Democrat from Tarrant
County (Ft. Worth). His face is beaded with the sweat
of activity as he hurries to keep up with all the
arriving cars, trying to keep people from parking in
unauthorized zones, and running shuttles now in three
locations: the Peace House, the camp, and the
satellite parking lot at a nearby stadium. He has to
go back home soon, so he also is looking at the time
and for someone to replace him. Here is Michelle from
Houston, but the velocity of arrivals is beginning to
blur my notes, so I return Biscuit to her crate and
hop a shuttle.
Just before the carful of pilgrims is ready to roll,
Hadi knocks on the window of the car. "We have a Gold
Star Mom, and she needs to get out to the camp."
Standing with Hadi is the mom's escort from Military
Families Speak Out." So I hop out to catch the next
shuttle as Hadi pauses to speak to a reporter from
Argentina. According to a press
href="http://www.mfso.org/">release from MFSO, two
Gold Star Mothers are scheduled for arrival this
morning. Barbara Porchi of Camden, Arkansas lost her
son Jonathan Cheatham in July 2003. Sue Niederer of
Penington, New Jersey lost her son Seth Dvorin in
February 2004. Niederer is a
href="http://www.gsfp.org/">co-founder of Gold
Star Families for Peace.
Out at the campsite, Celeste Zappala takes her turn
speaking at a press conference: "We lost our son Sgt.
Sherwood Baker. He was thirty years old. He was
killed on April 6, 2004 while he was looking for the
weapons of mass destruction long after everybody knew
they weren't there. He was the 720th American to die.
He was the first Pennsylvania National Guardsman to
die. Seven more died this week."
"When we buried Sherwood, I knelt down beside his
coffin and I vowed to him I will speak the truth for
him. This war is a disaster. It is a betrayal of our
military. And it's a betrayal of the democracy they
seek to protect." With wind beating into the truthout
microphone and tears racing into her eyes, Zappala
turns to step away from the camera: "Bring our troops
home now."
Stepping from the shuttle with a woman from Boulder,
Colorado, the first thing we see is Cindy Sheehan
walking toward us along Morgan Rd., television cameras
close behind. She seems just a little bit nervous as
she approaches us to ask how we're doing, gently
bringing her hand up to touch a shoulder. All those
cameras certainly make me a little nervous as I ask
how is her fever. "It's still getting better," she
says. She has taken some medicine.
As Cindy and her media entourage continue their
stroll, I hear a reporter identifying himself with the
Baton Rouge Free Press, the anti-war newspaper
produced by the Louisiana
href="http://www.dangerousweapon.com/lastopwar/">delegation.
I also hear Jim Goodnow slowly spelling Terlingua.
*****
The sun is high now, so I pop an umbrella and stroll
along the un-named lane where the crosses are now
fairly well begun: Ernesto Blanco, a former student
from Texas A&M University, killed by an "explosive
device" on Jan. 28, 2003. Buried at Fort Sam Houston,
Texas, at a funeral attended by the Governor. "My
brother touched so many people," said his
href="http://www.thebatt.com/media/paper657/news/2004/01/20/News/Former.Corps.Of.Cadets.Member.Killed.In.Iraq-583290.shtml">sister.
"Everyone that knew him felt like they were Ernie's
favorite, and that is a great gift." He loved his
life here in Texas: country music, Shiner Bock, and
the Hill Country. I hear the clink, clink, clink that
senior boots make as Aggie Cadets stride across
campus. His sister Carmen hears him playing guitar
and singing.
Viktar V. Yolkin of Spring Branch, Texas, one of three
Texas soldiers killed when their Bradley fighting
vehicle "overturned". He had come to America in 1998
and according to the Houston Chronicle, "he insisted
on joining the Army two years ago so he could wear the
uniform of the nation he had come to love." His
ex-wife, who tried to talk him out of the military,
said his body would probably be buried back in
Belarus.
Robert Wise, a 21-year-old Florida National Guardsman,
href="http://www.ngb.army.mil/news/story.asp?id=913">killed
in Nov. 2003 by an improvised explosive device or IED.
At high school in Tallahassee he played soccer, ran
cross country, and was commander of the ROTC. He had
been in Iraq seven months and was looking forward to
seeing his newborn
href="http://www.defendamerica.mil/articles/jun2004/a062104a.html">godson.
When two helicopters collided, killing 17 soldiers,
Robert's father David told the
href="http://www.militarycity.com/valor/256906.html">AP
that his son was greeting them in heaven, "Making it
better on them ... you know, with that goofy grin that
he had."
Isela Rubacalva from Ciudad Juarez, Mexico was killed
by
href="http://www.thenewstribune.com/news/military/stryker/story/4367510p-4133556c.html">mortar
May 8, 2005 near a chow hall. Her father Ramon is
href="http://www.laprensa-sandiego.org/archieve/august27-04/proxy.htm">quoted
by John Ross saying, “she died on Friday thinking
about coming home to eat carnitas and beans, drink a
beer and go to a dance. This war is useless, as
useless as Vietnam.”
Jonathan B. Shields of Atlanta was killed when "a tank
accidentally struck him." As he prepared to join a
mission to Falluja,
href="http://www.ajc.com/news/content/metro/1104/15irsoldier.html">reports
the Atlanta Journal-Constitution, he emailed his wife
in Texas: "This is the last time we're going to talk.
I'm not coming home from this." Before all that, he
had planned to enroll in culinary school, open a
restaurant, and add more children to his family.
Among the crosses, one finds an occasional crescent or
star of David.
Behind me, a late model Chevy 2500 eases quietly up
the nameless lane from Prairie Chapel Road. Down
comes the window and a middle aged fellow looks out,
his spouse smiling from the passenger seat. "Good
job, good job!" he says indicating the row of crosses.
"We're driving back from California to SouthEast
Texas, but we just wanted to stop by and tell you how
much we appreciate you." Several of us thank the guy
for stopping by, up goes the window, and the family
trip resumes. I double back down nameless lane and
href="http://maps.google.com/maps?q=crawford,+tx&ll=31.560080,-97.517182&spn=0.003952,0.007522&hl=en">turn
SouthEast on Morgan Road to check the leg of road
where folks are parking.
*****
It looks like headquarters here, the land of the
goddess warriors. Near an open van several CodePink
organizers pace with their cell phones. Camp director
Anne Wright is here, too. Cindy Sheehan is sitting on
an ice chest speaking with a reporter.
Further up the parking ditch, here's a pure Texas
classic. From the driver's window of her brightly
polished red Ford pickup truck stick the brown leather
boots of legendary Texas activist Diane Wilson. The
inveterate nonviolent warrior who changed chemical
history down along the coast with her hunger strikes,
and who was grinning and tromping around camp at dawn
like a trooper on caffeine, has now gone sound asleep
in the mid-day heat. She's hunger striking again, in
case you haven't heard. The hunger strike started on
Saturday the moment the cops stopped Cindy in the bar
ditch and told her she could go no further. "Are you
with me?" she asked Jodie Evans, and Jodie said sure.
So Jodie and about 100 others are hunger striking this
action.
About this time, Biscuit's mother comes walking by, so
we chat about the little guy. I tell her that I took
him for a walk. She tells me the story of how he was
found near a Houston highway at the age of eight
months. He's about three years old now. I wonder if
he'll ever get over his abandonment anxieties.
As I'm marveling at the purple color of the bud or
fruit of a five foot tall nettle or thistle, up comes
a new car. "I'm playing hookey from work," admits the
man from Austin as he locks up and walks toward camp.
The newly installed Port-O-Potty has been inserted
into the line of cars here. So the foot traffic is a
little heavier than before.
Attached to a car, with California Premium Trailer
plates, is an artful steel trailer. Into the panels
that surround the trailer an artist has cut reverse
silhouettes of the symbol of battlefield death: a
bayonetted rifle stuck upside down into the ground
with a helmet on top. So this is how the crosses got
here. Cicadas and crickets sing as waist high grass
blows in the westerly wind. In the ditches one finds
abundant evidence of the media flood that has come and
gone, leaving tire marks in the lush grasses. Along
the East side of Morgan road the fence posts are
metal. Along the west side, wood. I'm out on the
prairie again any my mind runs free. Dragonflies make
their way against the wind.
Back down Morgan Road toward camp, I am beginning to
get a sense of family. Here is Annie from the
Louisiana delegation running an errand, and Diane
Wilson is awake now speaking on the cell phone. She
lifts a boot to wave hi, and I make a note: it's the
left boot. Cindy Sheehan and the departing reporter
exchange hugs.
Nearby, Bill Mitchell is trying to get some shade and
downtime, but he's being harrangued by a lefty on
revolution overdrive who want a petition signed
pertaining to some issue that apparently needs lots of
explanation. "I'm here," says Mitchell finally,
"because my son was killed in Iraq." That seems to
startle the lefty somewhat, but I don't hang around
long enough to learn whether it shuts him up.
The chalk tally where the crosses begin marks today's
official tally at 1,841 killed in Iraq, 13,769
wounded. Next to that is a poster with thumbnails of
the first 1,000 faces. While looking at these signs I
can't help but notice the one right behind them:
"Posted No Trespassing." It won't be too many days
before the juxtaposition of these signs will define a
conflict.
*****
"Motorcade incoming!" someone shouts as we all freeze
and look NorthEast along Prairie Chapel Road. Is it
Condoleeza Rice? Donald Rumsfeld? Bush? Because the
line of cars contains a cop car, someone jokes: "He's
been in office seven years and they finally figured
out what he's guilty of." But the joke draws an
immediate rejoinder: "They won't arrest the head
honcho." A television news truck peels away from the
'motorcade' and parks inside the triangle as banter in
the crowd continues. "Somehow these people think you
don't have the right to change your mind. Both this
'motorcade' and the next dissolve before our eyes.
They were purely accidental arrangements of vehicles
that somehow just got bunched up on these narrow
country roads.
The precinct four road department is back again, with
the driver of the truck asking, "Where's my help?"
And the response: "What do you need help doing?" The
atmosphere seems to be loosening up quite a bit
between protesters and officials. I take in some last
images of animal life out here, Lucky Dog, a buzzard,
and a butterfly, before taking the next shuttle back.
"What's your name?" asks the woman in the passenger
seat. After she hears from the driver and me, she
says, "I'm Gen Vaughan." Wow, talk about dropping a
heavy name. If you don't know, do a Google on
Genevieve Vaughan to get lots of details on this
pre-eminent feminist organizer and philanthropist,
proponent of gift economics, matriarchal studies, and
women's radio. Then get out your calendar and save
these
href="http://www.awakenedwoman.com/genvau_societies.htm">dates
for the Second World Congress on Matriarchal Studies:
Sept. 29 - Oct. 2, San Marcos, Texas.
Back at the Peace House I'm going for some trunk
supplies in the Honda that I rode in, but I'm also
distracted by what's parked nearby. It's a friggin
Yellow Cab! I mean here in Crawford a Yellow Cab?
The mystery is answered somewhat when Air America
political satirist Barry Crimmins climbs into the cab
and rushes toward camp, but I wonder, did he catch
that cab on Park Avenue? Anyway, I'm thinking I
should hang out here at the Honda. Last car I saw
here was driven by Matt Taibbi of Rolling Stone, but
that was hours ago.
The side lawn of the Peace House is now drawing a
small crowd, thanks to Hadi's world famous wok veggie
deluxe. Recipe: get a Texas sized wok, preheat on an
outdoor cylinder grill, add veggies and spice to
taste, and serve with rice. Mark Green is going crazy
for the stuff, chomping down his third bowl and
telling me how to trade in electricity the honest way.
Austin musician Bill Passalacqua is
href="http://www.billpassalacqua.com/">singing
vintage Prine and updated Zevon. He had the whole
house grinning up at the VFP convention last weekend.
And he's getting some grins here too. Dick Underhill
is shaking everybody's hand. He tells me that Kay
Lucas is the story to go for, so make sure the guys
from truthout, Air America, and Rolling Stone don't
hear this, because I need the scoop.
But what's remarkable here on Thursday afternoon in
the side yard of the Peace House, August 11, is the
tent that's going up. Three foot metal posts are
being pounded into the ground by guys that look like
they've done this thing a time or two, and a large
white canopy is secured overhead. A half dozen
volunteers are dragging out cases of water from inside
as portable water coolers are being dragged over the
stones of the labyrinth.
Jim from Austin wants to videotape my philosophy of
religion, but I take a rain check on that. The heat
and the hours are swimming my thoughts around. Under
this freshly raised tent, I may be getting religion
right about now, but I couldn't unpack a concept for
him. We agree to try again in air conditioning.
*****
Going for a bottle of water, I meet the most
interesting fellow. His name is Tom and he didn't
drive too far to get here. By some kind of luck he
got out of the military in the summer of 2001, but he
knows lots of soldiers who were still in when 9/11
hit. One of those soldiers, a friend of his, went to
Iraq. Back from Iraq, the friend fell into deep
depression and was eventually discharged. "They
messed him up," says Tom. "And if they messed up my
friend, that's not right." So Tom went and bought a
brand new digital camera, because his favorite
bloggers on the internet want to see more pictures.
"How do we get to camp?" asks Tom. To which I reply,
"Come with me, I'll show you." This tent is working
great....
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Greg Moses is editor of Peacefile and author of
Revolution of Conscience: Martin Luther King, Jr. and
the Philosophy of Nonviolence. He can be reached at
gmosesx@prodigy.net
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"Further: the consequences of War, when impartially examined, will be
found big, not only with outward and temporal distress, but with an evil
that extends where in the darkness and tumult of human passions it is
neither expected nor conceived to reach"--Anthony Benezet
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